I think I’ve almost broken yesterday evening. I want to improve but I’m held down by the shackles of my past, the trauma’s of my youth. I’m trying so hard but i feel like I’m getting nowhere. I always go back to just being alive. Of all the things i want to do i have done none.
What have i accomplished? What did i actively do to get where i want to be?
I feel like a failure.
I’m tired of holding it all in. I can’t keep doing this on my own.
I need to stop being my own therapist.
I need help.
I’ve contacted a therapist. Now i just need to wait for them to call me back..