I always wonder what topics to talk about. I tend to joke this is my depression blog but what happens when the depression fades away?
Then what? I’ll still be ill, of course. That’s not going to magically disappear. And the autism isn’t going to go away either, that’s a permanent neurological condition.
So what happens next? I guess I’ll continue my progress and my journey to self-knowledge. I don’t want to use this blog to moan and complain about life but use it instead to process my situation and the effects my illness has on me. To get to know the me that doesn’t need social media as a crutch. To learn who I am all over again.
I want to break free from the invisible restraints society has on me. I don’t want to let other peoples opinions on how I should do things push me into denying my own self and my own choices. I might not be good at this but I should be allowed to pursue my own ways and mistakes should be acceptable.
Not everyone is suited for the same path in life. Some of us need a slower path. And that’s okay. There’s no shame in not pursuing a career or even a family. It should be up to the individual to decide. We all have different needs, likes and dislikes. If you want a family, that’s entirely up to you to decide. No one else should have a say in it. If you want a fast-paced life then that’s all your own personal choice.
For me a slow-paced life is ideal. I don’t strive for promotion. I’m happy enough doing the same boring thing every day. I don’t want the responsibilities of management. I’m happy just being a worker-bee.
And that’s okay. That’s what suits me and that’s what I choose.
I’ve made peace with my life-style. I like things quiet.