I’m frustrated that I can’t figure things out quickly enough. I’m lacking the knowledge, the words.. My heart keeps feeling heavy and I don’t really know what the exact problem is. It has been 11 days since I somehow broke through the depression but I still don’t really know what to make of it. I’m struggling to figure things out and I cannot stand it.

There’s too much information yet there’s so little of it. Normally I don’t have any problems with that but this time it just gives off a different feel. Perhaps the decision that I need to face my emotions instead of playing ostrich is what makes it so difficult. I feel stuck and I don’t know how to progress.

I feel so uncomfortable in my own skin today and not even a shower helped wash it all away. I’m so confused..