I’m dead tired. My eyes are heavy from sleep. My head has that familiar telltale feeling of needing sleep. I’ve taken my sleeping pills. I’ve taken my anti-stress pills yet I can’t sleep. Its been an hour. My eye are wide open and although I’m exhausted.. I don’t feel sleepy.

I’m so tired of this shit. I’m so tired off insomnia due to stress. I’m so tired of nothing going the way I want it to go. I’m tired of setting myself up for failure. I’m tired of being a failure.

I’m definitely not in a good spot right now. I’m feeling hopeless because things don’t seem to be getting better. It’s hard to keep going but I somehow can’t just give up. Life doesn’t pause just for me.. life doesn’t care if I’m drowning.