Therapist got back to me, appointment is next week Thursday.

Not sure how I feel right now. Part of me wants to cry my eyes out, the other part of me wants to feel as numb as humanly possible and then there’s this one motivated part that wants to “do stuff” but my numb part is all “Nahh.”

Motivated me wants to go to painting class.
Numb me? Nahh.
Sad me just wants to sleep.

Motivated me wants to draw.
Numb me? Nahh.
Sad me just wants to sit down and cry.

Motivated me wants to play just dance!
Numb me? Nahh.
Sad me thinks I should stop trying to get me to do things.

Motivated me is struggling to stay motivated..
Numb me? Nahh.
Sad me insists I go take a nap after crying.